Merry Christmas

I cannot believe I didn't take as many pictures as I wanted of visiting family on both sides of the family. We had a great Christmas Break and a great Christmas.  On Christmas Sunday, all my boys wore sweaters and were dressed handsome, I wish I got a picture of that. Our Outfits all matched. Mckay and I wore a Navy Blue Gingham top. Brooklyn and I wore cheetah print. And the boys wore either black or grey sweaters.  

Brooklyn's Christmas Sunday outfit. We were late to church. I wanted to snap a picture for my Mom as her dress was part of her gift.

We went to my parents house for dinner and made Gingerbread houses for dessert. It was fun and even the teenagers got involved in building their houses. Some of the adults were involved helping those that needed help.  I knew that this would be just so fun for the kids to enjoy and eat as they entertained themselves. 

Mckay has a crown of leaves on his head, like Ceasar. He looked so cute.  Brooklyn struggled with her house, she flipped her plate upside down thinking that would help balance her house out.  She ended up requiring help from Uncle Jesse. 

Mckay's Gingerbread House. I cannot believe I didn't get everyone else's. Levi's house was built for a second before he started eating it.  :)

Charlie & Brayden building their two story mansion. It held well and they both spent so much time on it. I am proud they spent so much time on it. 

On Christmas Day, these are the only pictures I actually took. Our Tree and Levi watching his new Paw Patrol Movie he received in his stocking from Santa. He was so happy.

🎄I was in heaven, because I was catching up on some much needed sleep. 

Hopekids Pizza & Cake

We attended a Pizza and Cake event with Hopekids. We never really know what to expect at each event, whether it be school, church or family event with Levi. We are so glad we went. It was a great opportunity for us to bond with Levi and Mckay one on one. Since Levi requires so much attention, my other kids have been receiving less attention and they are struggling.  The pizza was delicious and we each made our own.  The kids also decorated their own cupcakes and ate them. 

Since being on their journey with Levi having Epilepsy and Special Needs, how his Epilepsy isn't going away or getting better we have been struggling. For me, I have been so isolated and not having another person to turn to that has already been down this road. Levi wanted to go outside and run around. Aaron was outside and talking with other Moms' about how Levi is getting ready for the VNS (Vagus Nerve Stimulator) surgery and how we have been so worried. This Mom he was talking to, said she had a niece who had it. She said how she saw a difference in her seizures and her life. We have NEVER had anyone to turn to for something like this. This was a glimmer of hope that I was leading in the right direction. This road has been so hard already, but I am starting to see small glimmer of hopes that I am going down the correct path. 

Aaron and I both felt grateful that we were able to meet someone who had a good experience with the VNS surgery. We had hope that Levi would do okay and this surgery would help him, possibly reduce his seizures and pain that he is constantly in.

Mckay had a smile on his face the whole time. I helped him roll out his pizza dough. I helped him with his toppings. He made friends at our table and made more friends when we were outside running around with other Hopekids. We were accepted and loved, no matter our circumstances.  It was a nice time together and we are super grateful for that bonding moment to make memories together.

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Sibling Love

On Veterans day, we went to the zoo. It was packed with so many veterans and kids and it was fun. I had my whole family there and loved it. At the end of our trip, we were walking out but saw these beautiful pelicans. Mckay and Levi's relationship has grown tremendously and still needs improvement, who doesn't need improvement? Levi now hugs and kisses Mckay when he is happy and wants to share that love and happiness with him. It is so cute to watch and know that they are building their relationship.

Mckay and Levi LOVE to sleep in Brooklyns' room. Our rule is only on weekends, this is allowed because they play and don't get as much sleep as they would sleeping in their own beds. This paticular night, Aaron and I were on a date. Brooklyn called us in a panic that Levi had a seizure in his sleep. He woke up, said he had a seizure and whined. Brooklyn prayed to Heavenly Father to ask Levi to stop having a seizure. Levi did stop and then said he wanted to go back to bed.  I am forever grateful that Brooklyn was there to help when I could not. It was a bonding moment in her life and I have seen Brooklyn change for the better. 

I wanted to share the love my children have towards their brother Levi. Levi is very hard at a lot of times, and even when we struggle and have a rough day, at the end of the day, we still love and appreciate Levi. I know I do not give my children enough credit of how much I appreciate them. I try to improve where I am struggling. Brooklyn, my daughter has told me lately how she wants to work at Hopekids Foundation and wants to have a special needs child, preferrably a Down Syndrome Child. I have never heard of any teenager plan to have or want a special needs child for their life. I KNOW that she is learning to love everyone from all backgrounds and all needs in life. I KNOW that she is paying attention and trying to be close to Heavenly Father. She is an example to me. She teaches me new things every day. 

On this particular day, I took Tanner, Mckay and Levi to a Hopekids event at Sea life Aquarium and LegoLand Discovery Center in Tempe. The boys were counting down the days and was so excited. It was also a stressful day. After a long full day at school, Levi is tired and overwhelmed. He usually has between 5-7 seizures at school, not including what he has at home. Overstimulating him causes more seizures, which makes it challenging at these fun events. With Levi's special needs, he doesn't pick up on social cues and boundaries. This is another challenge that we have to maneuver through, daily. The boys are learning to communicate and bond with Levi. It is so nice to see them work together and get along. 

I just wanted to remember the growth of my children bonding and building their relationship with Levi. Not everyday is stressful, we have many good days, but they all take a lot of work. We are forever grateful for having Hopekids in our life. It makes us bond and look forward to really cool events. 

Trip to the Childrens' Museum in Phoenix, Az.

We got accepted into The Hopekids Foundation this year. Hopekids Foundation is for children who have life threatening diagnosis. The Foundation treats our Hopekid and family so well. They invite and strongly suggest for siblings and parents to come to the events they put on, even if Hopekid cannot come. They know how isolating it is for families who have to deal with so much medical appointments, therapies, surgeries and stress. They want us to bond as a family. 

We are so blessed to be apart of this foundation!

Everyone came but Brayden. He had a soccer game to go to. We missed him.

With a large family who is all into extra curricular activities, we don't always get to go to events together all the time, but we try.

This place was really fun. It was a first for us. I was able to let my older children explore on their own. I was able to bring in food and eat in the cafeteria. Note to self: bring an actual lunch and keep in portable cooler, not just snacks. This whole museum was very kid friendly and so fun, even for us adults. 

Thank you Hopekids! We had a blast and made so many positive memories with our family.










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How To Manage Stress

Being an advocate and caregiver for my Levi is so much work, at a lot of times it is pure exhaustion! I deeply love being a Mother to each of my children. I am SO very grateful for the opportunity for me to be a Stay at Home Mom. I am busy with my own dreams and goals, as well as running the household. I am slammed when the kids arrive home from school. It is so important to me and Aaron that I have enough time to manage my stress. Raising as many kids as I have AND having a child with Special Needs, adds A LOT of stress to my life. I have created a list that works wonders for me.

This will make you smile.  :)

(Levi is eating his favorite snack- Raw Broccoli)

How To Manage Stress

• Exercise 

Exercise takes energy that is hard to get when you are drained. I add a little pre-workout caffeine to my body daily routine and I am able to get to the gym. I actually enjoy walking on the treadmill and lifting weights. I feel like a warrior once I complete my workout. I am always less stressed and if I had a headache, it is always gone. I am in a better mood and depression subsides when I workout. I strive to workout daily.  

• Deep Breaths

You can do deep breaths anywhere and it works! I have to breathe deep when someone cuts me off the road. I have to take deep breaths when I need to "bite my lip". It helps me process my emotions and thoughts more clearer. You cannot take back when you didn't mean to say, even if you are truly sorry.  Breathing Deeply helps improve digestion, De-stress and feel energized. These factors go on high alert when you are stressed. 

• Hot Baths/Showers

I LOVE taking hot baths and showers, although I prefer baths over showers. I always feel so relaxed and calm after I soak in the bath for at least 20 minutes. In my opinion, you have to set the mood just right so you will enjoy it too. I use Epsom Salt with Lavendar oil and turn the lights off. I fill the bath water as high as I can and have the temperature as hot as I can stand it and be comfortable. I sometimes listen to soothing music or a podcast I enjoy. I sometimes will read through a magazine or a book. You can light a good smelling candle. You can also add essential oils and bubbles.

• Sleep

I cannot stress this enough! Nap whenever you can. If you are like me, you will see me staying up late trying to catch up on my daily assignments I couldn't get through and tidying up the house before bed. I am a night owl, but I do take naps whenever I can.  It's almost like having a newborn...sleep when kids sleep. But for reals!

• Pray

I believe in God. I believe in the power of Prayer. I believe that Heavenly Father listens to me whether I am happy or sad. I believe he answers my prayers. I pray often. I usually am always praying for strength, safety and help. I do also pray in gratitude to my Heavenly Father for appreciation for staying at home with my children, being a mother and for the many blessings I have.

• Journal

I choose to journal my thoughts on this blog. It is very therapeutic to me. I also sometimes journal my inner most feelings that I don't share with anyone in a hardbound book I keep in my nightstand. Mostly, it is just a diary of my day as well as questions I am searching for myself and writing out to Heavenly Father. 

• Read

I am a big book reader, when I get a good book I am into. I love Non-fiction books, Mysteries, Trauma & Survival. I am learning to love the Book of Mormon. I listen to my personal scripture study online through my phone while I am multi-tasking at home. I comprehend the scriptures better. Regardless of you choice of book, it is nice to sit and read, feel calm and relaxed.